try not to spend too much time wondering how I can possibly be 45.
FWIW, LadyFingers, I'm soon to be 45 and a Half.
And yet, I still do not have the eloquence and awareness of self that you currently have.
I think our World is edified with your presence in it each day. So there. Take that!
Oh & Happy Birthday, too! 
Krissy~~~

The Greater Part of Happiness or Misery depends on our Dispositions, Not Our Circumstances~~~Martha Washington