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silly saturday chat now open-

oeg1kallee — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 05:33:19 GMT

and because I am up the latest ? - I get to start it!

Two girlfriends asked me to go to the movies- and saw Blind Side- Really, really good- upbeat, feel good movie!!!

Ok- what's up with everyone?

Friday

klotoole — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 10:33:53 GMT

Morning everyone. Sorry I haven't posted the last few days. I have been by to check and see what everyone has been doing. I'm glad everything seems to be going well with Allen's invention. I would call the attorney and let them negotiate with anyone interested. Like Cheryl said too many was for Allen to get screwed. Kallee, I did decide to make the trip to the other barn. I figured if it became too much I would look for something else. I will be able to make my own hours/days, so I won't really have to deal with the snow. Also the owners told me I can stay in the empty apartment they have if there is a bad storm and I don't want to drive home. I had yesterday off and today too! Yippy. Anyway gotta run and put the dogs out.

Thankful count down day 6 (and 5) sorry 'bout that

oeg1kallee — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 05:26:54 GMT

I could not get on early enought to catch all of you for day 6- so we will do two days at once!

Tell me something you are thankful for about yourself- and about your home-

It is actually difficult for me to think about myself, but I will try-I am thankful that God made me with many flaws- which help me to relate to others......ok, that's not the way I meant for us to answer. Try again- I am thankful that I have wavy hair- cause I don't have to mess with it much.

I am thankful for this 100 year old house with creaks, and cracks, and tons of personality.

Time for happy dances -- please add your's

JenniHusker — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 15:09:47 GMT

Thankful countdown to Thanksgiving- day 7 (post yours)

oeg1kallee — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:50:04 GMT

Let's remind ourselves each day of what we have been blessed with- just a little something to post.

Today- Think of something to do with this country we live in-

I will start:

I am thankful for all of the men and women that have given of their servce, life and limbs for the protection of our freedoms. Thank you to their families sacrifice as well.

Article that may be of interest to some of you...

JenniHusker — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 19:16:10 GMT

I know I sent it to my brother!!

http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/84292/95025/relatives?ic=6043

Thursday

LeoraM_IA — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 12:21:14 GMT

I think the interview went well because he moved me on to the next step which was an online self assesment. I had a lot of trouble with 1 section that had 30 four statement groups and I had to pick the 2 that made me most uncomfortable but almost all of them I do already on a regular basis so none of them would bother me much but I still had to pick 2 so I did. I think when they set up the face to face I will tell the person that. There were only a very few that would have made me uncomfortable at all and them were not bad. The statements were things like wearing a headset for the job. And talking about a new product to a customer that calls in. Or talking to an upset customer. All of these I do already every single day. I don't mind the job I do now just can't stand the management. Thank you all for the good thoughts and prayers please keep them up till the face to face interview.

Have I told you lately that I am so very happy that I have all of you as friends? I love being able to come here and share joys and sorrows on good days and rough days.

Only 2 more days this week, this has felt like the longest week ever as the stress level at work has been horrific. I am sooooooo looking forward to next week and only working 2 days. Wed I have 2 drs appts in the morning then need to finish shopping for our Thanksgiving meal that night. Then home to cook all afternoon. Most things will be done just need heating and the ham and turkey are small and I love the way the house smells when they are cooking. The girls will be here to help and we have alot of fun cooking together.

Hip Hip Hooray!

M_Wolverine — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 19:00:26 GMT

It's taken a lot of years of suffering, 3 Dr. changes and several months of talking with the new Dr. to convince him that I need to try some anti-depressants and yesterday he faxed a prescription in for me. He's giving me Citalopram (brand name Celexa) which I've never heard of, but it's one of several different kinds of selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. It's supposed to take 4 weeks or more for it to start working in my system so I wish he'd have listened to me when I first started going to him so that Thanksgiving could be a little brighter. But on the bright side.....for the first time in many years, I might have a chance to enjoy Christmas.

Keep your fingers crossed for me please.

Thanksgiving

LeoraM_IA — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 00:58:17 GMT

Susie asked what we was on the menu for Thanksgiving meal. I think we should say something we are thankful for and then what we are planning. I will go first: I am thankful I have the good Lord in my life and that I have a wonderful family that enjoys spending time together.

My meal will be: ham, turkey, mashed taters, sweet taters, dressing. gravy, corn, rolls, grasshopper pie, and pumpkin pie with whipped cream.

We will be having this on Wed and not Thurs as DH has to work on Thurs. We will have leftovers before he goes to work on Thurs then me and the girls will take a plate to MIL and visit with her for the afternoon. We are having the Thanksgiving with my mom and siblings this weekend.

Then we have the big get together with my entire family, all aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews, and so on and so on the Sunday after Thanksgiving.

Not a good week to try and diet. LOL

Who's next?

Happy Hump Day

LeoraM_IA — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 12:13:41 GMT

It's the middle of the week and I am wondering if I will make it to Friday. It has been stressful at work and some days (like today) I just do not want to go. I do have the second interview to look forward to tonight though. DH goes back to work tomorrow after having the last 7 days off.

Not much else going on around here.

bbwdreamsicle sometimes I think we all feel that way for some reason or other. Have you tried any free classes or joining any groups that do something that interests you? Our Library has free classes frequently and some are really fun. And it gets you out of the house and you may meet some nice people that could become friends.

Tuesday

klotoole — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 10:46:02 GMT

Morning everyone. I slept lousy last night. I fell asleep way to early and then tossed and turned. I came down to sleep on the couch, because I didn't want to wake Jim up. I kept waking up sweating to death. I feel okay, so not sure why. Anyway, heading to NH today for my first official day of work up there. The last 3 horses left yesterday and I had tears in my eyes when my little Dee-dee got on the trailer. It's chilly here this morning, but supposed to get up in the 50's for the rest of the week. I think since we had rain every day in June, this is Mother Nature's way of giving back. It's been unseansonably warm for Nov. I'm not complaining mind you.Leora, so glad DD is going to get her much needed surgery. Hoping, like you, that she is better before the holidays. It will give you guys something to celebrate! Meredith, I'm with Jenni. I think a murder trial would be interesting! Jenn, I hear you on the expectations of others. Most of the time I feel like when I agree to help them with something it then becomes expected that I will do it all the time. Of course I do and then I end up feeling resentful and taken advantage of! I know I need to learn to say "no". Suzie, it sounds like you live in a pretty remote area. Shopping is cheaper in the big city? Hope the dogs give you a break today, but knowing how my dogs are you will always be wondering what they see out in the woods! LOL. When will hubby be home from this trip? Jenni, glad you are feeling a little better. That was so nice of Bubba to make a cake even though he had a little trouble! Oh, Kallee, I feel for you with the cookies. My boss is always changing her mind, or adding "one more thing" Keep your chin up and once you get it down, it will be easy going on future orders. Cheryl, could you please share your recipie for blueberry cobbler? I love blueberries. I make a great coffee cake I will share the recipie with if you are interested. Low fat too! Lorith, how exciting to remodel. Only 30 years, that's not bad. LOL. My house was built in 1919 and had very small rooms. We took down most of the walls on the first floor and made a very open floor plan. It was great for entertaining. I know the mess s*cks, but it will be worth it. Jim started working on replacing the stairs at my old house. Yoo-hoo, getting some work done over there so we can rent it or sell it. So happy. It will take awhile, but at least progress is being made. Can't wait to only have one mortgage and so happy that I am not living there with the mess. TTYL. Have a great day!!

Monday

klotoole — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 10:54:36 GMT

Morning everyone. Sounds like everyone is struggling a little bit right now, between colds, pain, and being in a funk. Hope things turn around for you all soon. Think of you guys every day even if I miss a day of posting. Argh!! There are a few dishes in the sink, which I planned on putting in the dishwasher after my coffee. I can hear Jim out there doing it. I don't want him to feel like I don't do anything......Gotta run, TTYL.

I AM HOME

GmaCheryl — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 21:17:36 GMT

Hello friends!

We got home yesturday. Had a great time. The party was a complete surprise!!!!

We stayed over with them for the week and got lots done for them. Jon built a cover overe their deck. We pulled up all the (most) brances they had cut off trees last yr and got them burnt..all day job. Did some winterizing also. Dad is not well off with his heart and breathing. Weak most the time.

I also bought a new laptop there..mine was gonna cost 400 bucks at the shop i took it to..i said forget that!!!!! So got this new one. I am gonna get ahold of a guy that does work on the side to see what he would charge me to get a new fan in it and I may hand it down to my inlaws. Their pc is ancient! They mostly play games check email and pay bills.but still they need some speed!!!!

other then that all is well. GOOD to be home, but yet wasnt ready to leave them.

Amanda and the boys came over last nite..missed them. I think they must of missed us to! LOL

Hope you all are well..

Bright and Sunny Sunday!

UpNorthSusie — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 20:17:48 GMT

Wow! It's about time I got here! I've been pretty tired these past few days and have been taking it easy. My RA is flaring and I think that it's messing with the broken bones in my back. I can't even roll over in bed. But I'm feeling a bit better today and thought the first thing I wanted to do was to get here!

Hubby is still out on the road. He had to sit to wait for a load yesterday, that's not good. He was sitting down near Chicago. I'd rather he be sitting here with me. But the way things are going (no one having the money to buy much) we're lucky that he finally got a load and could re-load his hours of service.

I got my morning chores done and did a little housework. With a Mute in the house, you always have vacuuming to do. I've been fighting with myself to try and lose some weight. I really need to lose about 40 lbs. I gained most of it when the doctors put me on predizone (steroids for my RA). Now that I'm off of it, I haven't too much of an appetite, but the weight still keeps piling on.

Well, gotta go. But here's a little prayer/thought for all of my friends and family:

Neither go back in fear and misgiving to the past, nor in anxiety and forecasting to the future, but lie quiet under His hand, having no will but His.

Have a wonderfully Blessed day!

Sunny Saturday

purselamplady — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 15:10:41 GMT

Sorry I haven't posted. I've been with Judy since her operation. Her surgery wasn't scheduled until 3:00 on Wed, but she didn't get to the OR until 4 or so. Then she didn't come back to the room until around 7:30.

Turns out that not only did she have a ruptured disc, she had two pinched nerves, one the sciatic nerve, and bone spurs. The doctor said it was pretty bad. She was in a lot of pain after the surgery and on Thursday. The doctor was going to let her go home on Thursday, but she was still throwing up from the anesthesia and couldn't keep any food down. She didn't start eating until that night. She went home yesterday. I was with her the whole time, as was her DH, but he didn't get there in the morning as early as I did.

Anyway, that's been my last few days. I'm happy I stayed with her because she kept getting contradicting information from the nurses.

Saturday!!!! Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jenndem — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 15:21:51 GMT

Jenni- Hope you feel better soon! Neither of those things are fun to have.

We have a birthday party to go to taday! Our friends grandbaby is turned one yesterday! I just got her some clothes! That girl has all the toys she needs. And I bought 24 months so she can have some clothes when she gets a little bigger! I'm hoping that the baby feels better. She's the one that's been really sick and mother wasn't taking her in. I haven't seen her in a week or two and then she had either hives or scarlet fever. I think it was hives cuz when you rubbed it it went back to the color of her skin. I told her mom to give her a little bit of benedryl but I think she ignored me.

Yesterday, I ended up getting really irritated with Allen. I told him he needed to spend the weekend with our friends! lol I did say it jokingly! I was making fun of myself for being so pissy! I took my frustrations out on the storage under the stairs! Packed some stuff that we aren't using and took it over to my moms! While there I told my dad what I had told Allen, about staying at a friends house, but I told him we don't have the gas for him too, so my dad hands me a bundle of money! lol $19 is what he gave me! It would be nice to get a break from eachother but All in time!

The "place" called Allen! They are almost done with the pattand search and so far there is nothing out there. So Allens is the first and the last! Unless they pay for it!

Well time for me to get ready! Have a wonderful day!

sunny thought for the weekend-

oeg1kallee — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:23:34 GMT

"The more you are focused on time-past and future- the more you miss the now, the most precious thing there is. Life is now"- Eckhart Tolle, contributor to Guidepost mag who deals with depression

"better to do something imperfectly, than to do nothing flawlessly"- Robert Schuller founder of the Crystal Cathedral

Freaky Friday-the 13th

klotoole — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 11:26:54 GMT

Morning everyone. Sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I have stopped by to read what everyone has been up to, but just been really busy. Leora, congrats on the interview. I'm praying for you, it's so much better to be happy at work than not. Good luck. No more stupid training meetings for you! Jenn, I don't think anyone has asked you, but what is Allen's invention? Glad that it seems to be going good for you guys. You need a change in luck! Good luck with crocheting. My grandmother used to do it all the time. I never saw her without her needle going and when she passed away there were enough unused afghans for everyone to have. She used to do doilies and everything. She taught me when I was young, but I could never keep my edges straight!! Knitting is easier for me. Jenni, sorry your still not feeling well. I wish I could do something to make you healthy as a horse! LOL. Have you started any cross stitch projects? Kallee, wasn't the Dew Drop in where Jason Walton played piano on the Waltons? I think it was. Glad you had fun at Disney. I have only been once and we went to Epcot and Animal Kingdom. Food and Animals, what more could I ask for! Susie, my first dog as an adult was an Alaskan Malamute. I know that everyone mistakes then for Huskies. He was named Kodiak, and he was HUGE! Loved him to pieces, but when my son was born, he became pretty agressive toward him. I found him a nice home with a couple that had another one and lived on a farm. I cried for weeks... Well, my new work drama is that my boss (weekday job) is sending the last 3 horses to the trainer in NH and shutting down the farm at her house. She offered to pay me to go up to NH 3 days a week full time. I won't have to feed or clean stalls. Just groom, ride, take 1 lesson a week, and learn how to work the horses from the trainer. It is an awesome opportunity, except that the ride is about 70 minutes. The trainer and his partner are really sweet and told me that during bad weather I am more than welcome to stay in the empty apartment on the property. They've been trying to get me up there to work for a couple of months! So I agreed to do it. That means I will only be working 5 days a week instead of 7. Not sure if it will start this week coming or the following. Hope everyone has a great day!

Thursday

LeoraM_IA — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 12:23:12 GMT

I got an email about a job I applied for and they want to do a phone interview. I am soooo excited. More money and better benefits but worse hours. Oh well can't have it all. The job I have is not very secure right now and I am terrified of getting laid off. We just recovered from last time.

This is a post and run since I have to leave early today to drop DD off at her place.

Overspending

bbwdreamsicle — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:52:19 GMT

OMG, I just ordered some cookware and some pet supplies online, plus a Christmas gift for my Dad, and now I have only about $150 until my next check (which is not until Dec. 3) I am going to have to make sure I do not buy any takeout food between then and now, and no Dunkin Donuts coffee. I went onto Bed Bath and Beyond to buy a $10 thermometer and ended up spending $70. I will have to stick to supermarket food this month (at least I still have $90 in food stamps). The only other purchase I will make will be $22 for kitty litter, which I can pay my Dad for after I get my next check. This way, if I need to withdraw some money from the bank, I have a tiny cushion. Thank God I paid all my bills for this month!

Wacky Wednesday

purselamplady — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 10:06:49 GMT

Ha Ha Kelly! Beat you today! Usually you're the first to post this!

It is wacky for me. I've been up all night; just couldn't sleep. Guess I'll have to do at least some sleeping during the day, but not much because Judy's surgery is at 3, and we have to be at the hospital by 1:30.

I talked to the apartment office again and the manager told me that since the City was now involved that they could move on with possible eviction of the people upstairs. She said she'd send out another letter, this time one more stern. Funny, becaue I haven't heard those dogs for the past several days, but they aren't home anyway, so maybe they took the dogs with them. I can only hope they got the hint.

I should be either at Judy's house or at the hospital today. I don't suppose she'll get out of there until at least 7 with surgery, recovery room, and all that junk. I've had more surgeries than I can count (I think I'm up to 11 or 12 now) so I know that routine pretty well. PITA. I'm sure she'll do well. She's got probably the best back surgeon in town.

Tuesday

LeoraM_IA — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 12:19:08 GMT

Wow I get to start 2 days in a row. LOL

My back is feeling much better today I did not do anything last night and I think it just needed a night off. Everyone sounds so busy lately and having so much fun.

Jenni come on over anytime and we will take a ride. Maybe next summer we can get together sometime and go for one since we are not really that far apart. I hope you are feeling better.

Kallee I remember teaching youngest to drive somehow it seemed so much harder that the first. Something about the baby driving just does not seem right. LOL She hates it when I call her that but she will always be my baby and she knows it.

Hi to everyone and I hope you all have a day full of blessings big or small.

We are still in the 60s here and I am loving it. This is what I like not hot not cold.

Monday

LeoraM_IA — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 12:24:47 GMT

Another week boy do they seem to fly by fast these days.

We rode the bikes both days this weekend it was in the 70s here record highs. Also did soem cleaning and I strained something in my lower back and it hurts to move much this morning. I took some ibuprofen and hope it kicks in soon.

Not much going on here hope you all are doing well.

Time to see a doc

bbwdreamsicle — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 04:32:50 GMT

I am feeling SO BAD today... all day I just keep thinking I wish I was dead b4 my next birthday (dont worry I am scared of dying at the same time and would never act on these thought) I ALWAYS get depressed this time of year, always try to figure out wy and realize it is subcounsciously due to my Mom's death.I used to love my birthday, now I hate it because I am lonely, and my Mom was buried that day. I stopped talking to the man I was seeing, we got into a fight and he said some cruel things. I am so lonely, I just cant take itanymore.

Sunday

klotoole — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 11:23:00 GMT

Good morning everyone. I woke up this morning to no pain in my tooth! Yippy!! Going to work today. Connor has been home for the weekend and it was nice to spend time with him. It had been 3 weeks since I've seen him. His 16th birthday is in 1 month, so he will be able to take the test for his learner's permit. He is so excited and I am so worried! I'm excited too, because it will be nice to have him driving, but a mother worries, as you all know. I keep telling him to study, but of course, he doesn't. It was rather quiet here yesterday. I hope that means you all were doing something fun! Have a great day and I'll check in later.